cigarette smoke , colourful jellybeans

2009-05-07T02:51:00.000-07:00

hey peeps ..i'm back ..i know i know i know...its been long but schools just started and its was just crazy hahah..i've got loadz of stories to share ahahha..(did you know you can leave the class if ur bored ?) haha yea ....well god ...hahaha i'm actually smiling hahah i've got loadz and loadz of pic and vids in poly ..the people here are way off the charts all of them are so friendly ..i met friends from all sorts of places some india ..myammar thailand and even nepal ahahah..there is this girl who was from jc but she said it was too straining so she came here..good for her i personally cant study in jc ..no offence to jc students but all of then are (on the ball)kinda students haha..anyways back to me ..i made it to NGEE ANN POLY (god traveling is such a hassle )but its worth it ..ok lets go to cca's i joined the the french club and debating and i'm taking french class as an extra module...well the reason why i aint taking sports is because i tore my rotary cuff(shoulder muscle) and the doctors insisted i rest for 2 months without sports ..the most amazing part of this sometimes i go to school with a sling on my arm and i'll get VIP service haha ..people will help me get my food,carry my laptop ,open the door hahah well ..what can i say np people are just too nice ..ok i guess i'll stop here i've gotta go for my french club thing ...cherrios peeps

walid

BACKK

2009-04-09T06:12:00.000-07:00

Still
Matt Nathanson

i remeber hearts that beat
yeah yeah
i remember you and me
yeah oh yeah
tangled in hotel sheets
you wore me out
you wore me out
i remember honey lips
and words so true
i remember non-stop earthquake dreams of you
coming on fast like good dreams do
all night long
i still can feel you kiss me love
still can see your brown skin shining (shining)
still can feel you kiss me love
come on and drive me wild (wild)
and you move like water
yeah
and you broke like waves
i never been deeper so far gone

your sister in the next room with the television on
still can feel you kiss me love
still can see you brown skin shining (shining)
still can feel you kiss me love
come on and drive me wild
come on and drive me wild
come on and drive me wild
i remember hearts that beat
yeah
i remember you and me
tangled in hotel sheets (for hours)
i still can feel you kiss me love
still can see your brown skin shining (shining)
still can feel you kiss me love
come on and drive me wild
i still can feel you kiss me love
still can see your eyes like diamonds (diamonds)
memories are strong enough
to come on and drive me wild
come on and drive me wild

i just had to put that song up..i've been listening to it non stop ..honestly matt nathanson is a great singer..the other song which i love is entitled "come on get higher"he is the kinda singer where you listen to on a sunday afternoon by the park and let the whole week unwind ..well thats how i feel...

ok lets change colours abit ..ok things have been really hectic for me ..i'm taking french class and i was taking martial art class till i tore my rotart cuff and now i have to go for an MRI scan to see how large is the tear.if it is big then i'd have to go for surgery ..well lets see how it goes..i'm walking around with a sling around my shoulder ..honestly its like the best thing that happened to me cause wherever i walked girls would just stare in pitty .there was once this girl actually helped me with my cup of coffe in starbucks haha ..that was nice of her..well i last week i went for my class orientation ..and living the life of a poly student is the best thing ever ..you have to go lectures ..you can book chalets rooms which are situated somewhere in the school campus ..have ur own lockers and carry laptops everywhere we went .what more can you ask.. we have subway and hungry jacks and lots of other stuff wel guys come to NGEE ANN its a preffered choice well..the bad side to it is that if ur living in punggol then its a bit hard to get to school because of the travelling distance ..but its all worth it

anyways coming to today's story went to watch fast and furious 4 god thats a crazy movie ..loved it to the core..than was shopping around orchard and i got a book from borders its called ''the elements of style by william strunk ..i think every one schould get it well i'm gonna adopt a cat ahahaha himalayan kitten to be exact hahah wish me luck ..

ok i'gotta go seya guys and ladies miss you loadz cheerios

walid
peace&love

randoms

2009-03-04T12:54:00.000-08:00

was fooling around at the gym with keong hahaha crazy shit

Dubai was AMAZING!!!!!!!! daam i missed it ..all the friends i made from all around the world my friend in the pic is from a Brazil and is an insect biologist and he's prolly coming to Singapore and am gonna catch up and do something stupid ..met him when i was snowboarding ..and the lady too..

MALAYSIA was crazyy too rented out a room at hotel tune ..its the coolest hotel ever ..and the cheapest i guess hahah ..well Malaysia wasn't really that good cause the people are about the same to Singaporean so i cant really feel the whole cultural exchange

well gotta go this was a random post didn't have anything to talk about peace out shenanigans

QUICKIE

2009-03-02T11:36:00.000-08:00

OK guys its 3.30am and its late so here's a short one ...quickie

CAUTION;do not read the words in red if ur just blog hopping ..like a good friend of mine says quote"Wasn't written to be analysed Meant To Inspire Without Reason To Touch Without Understanding"if you guys still wanna read this be my guest .Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.It is our light,not our darkness that most frightens us .Your small playing does not serve the world.There is nothing enlightening about shrinking,so that other people won't feel insecure around you.We were all ment to shine,as children do.It;s not just in some of us ,it's in everyone.And as we let our own light shine.We unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.As we are liberated from our own fear,our presence automatically liberates others

sorry rong for the pic haha cant help laughing ..cant believe u did that ...well guys as u can tell i went to watch bloody valentine and guess what it was in 3D!!!!! bitches..how about that for a movie ..rong like so totally wasted her money she was removing her specs every 5 min ..ohh sorry i mean 3D specs EHEM ...well its went with ishaq and the whole trip was CRAZY u freaking tumbler haha anyways I'll update some more tomorrow peace out shenanigans ..

KL!!!!!!!!

2009-02-28T12:37:00.000-08:00

heyyy.as you can tell i just came back from kl but the sad thing is my cam spoilt on the way and daaam i couldnt take any photos but i still got a couple through my iphone ..well the trip was great ...we went shopping..shopping and more shopping and then partying ...well i'm starting to feel like a girl ..not literaly of course but i'm getting myself new clothes..haircuts.etc the stuff's that girls are suppose to be doing .. well anyways i'm prolly going out to watch bloody valentine this monday with close friends and lets see what happens and ohh yea i'm suppose to go out with sufia ahahahha

ok i cant seem to get this song out of my head ..here's the lyrics they're from ingrid michaelson

don't you worry, there my honey
we might not have any money
but we've got our love to pay the bills

maybe I think you're cute and funny,
maybe I wanna do what bunnies do with you,
if you know what I mean

Oh, let's get rich and buy our parents homes in the South of France
let's get rich and give everybody nice sweaters
and teach them how to dance
let's get rich and build our house on a mountain
making everybody look like ants
from way up there, you and I, you and I, you and I,

well you might be a bit confused
and you might be a little bit bruised
but baby how we spoon like no one else
so I will help you read those books
if you will soothe my worried looks
and we will put the lonesome on the shelf

oh let’s get rich and buy our parents homes in the South of France
let's get rich and give everybody nice sweaters
and teach them how to dance
let's get rich and build our house on a mountain
making everybody look like ants
from way up there you and I, you and I, you and I

oh, let’s get rich and buy our parents homes in the south of France
let's get rich and give everybody nice sweaters
and teach them how to dance
let's get rich and build our house on a mountain
making everybody look like ants
from way up there you and I, you and I, you and I

gypsy

2009-02-22T11:19:00.000-08:00

ok i've gotta apologize i've not been blogging much ..but i've been busy from having french lessons to partying and going out with my beloved peeps ...

omg have i told you guys ..i enrolled in a french course at this language school called Berlitz which is at ngee Ann city

its really cool cause I've met loads of friends and my neighbour is in the same school but taking Japanese ha ha

well.... what can i talk about ....hm mm ohh yea was at a pool party with a couple of friends and ms nelleke eng and guess what wee yang was swimming hahahah ok ok I'm sorry i shouldn't be disturbing him but i cant help it ...and guess what i told him that if he wanted to get more chicks he should pluck off his nipple hair(god his hair is as long as Samara's armpit in scary movie) and guess what he PLUCKED IT OUT ON THE SPOT ouchhhhhh that's gotta hurt really bad haha .OH yea i got past my pilot's interview WHOOOOO now i can have my pilots license by the end of the year .wouldnt it be great if i brought my date flying

now thats something i would consider ...oh yea ying ling and my neighbor are taking it with me ;)

CURRENT LOVES

-Ingrid Michaelson

-vanae

-french classes

-my new clown fishes ;)

-my macbook

-lily allen (just got the new album...its dope)

-my iphone 3g

-cant wait to enter ngee ann poly

-dempsey road -ben and jerry's

CURRENT HATES

-waking up at 5pm(gives me headaches when i wake up )

-sleeping at 5am

-lingering feelings

-my macbook burning my lap(gets too hot-thats what you get when ur lappy is made of alluminium)

I couldn't make her understand. Tears were in 
her eyes and a wall in her mind blocked my 
logic. She didn't want me here pleading in her 
living room anymore. She loved me, but she 
wanted me gone. The more I stayed the more I 
hurt. Yet the pain was all that I had left of 
our relationship. And if I was here then I 
wasn't alone yet. It delayed me facing the 
emptiness, along with the sleepless nights, the 
lack of appetite, the piles of laundry, the 
stale air of my house from being shut in for 
days and then weeks.

We had broken up before, several times to be 
honest. But, this time carried with it a taste 
of finality, like acid in the back of our 
throats. I hated the thought of now becoming 
just me, and no longer a guy with a girlfriend.

How would I do it? How would she...well, she had
that other guy, so I guess that made things 
easier for her. I wouldn't be so lucky. I would 
become single. I would have to call the buddies 
that I neglected all too often to spend 
frivolous time with her. We would have to go out
into the unwelcoming weekend nights, into the 
jungles of bars and clubs of downtown Phoenix, 
Tempe, and Scottsdale. We'd get drunk and roll 
the dice, and always miss more than we ever hit.

I wanted to be done looking. Damn it! I didn't 
want to go back out there. I didn't want to take
the lessons I learned with her and try to apply 
them to a different person at a different time. 
If she would just listen, I'd look past her 
cheating, I had once already. But she couldn't 
hear past that wall she raised upon which the 
dreams of our future became tiny insignificant 
bug splats.

That night ended and the lines of what I should 
have said rolled through my head like an endless
scrolling LED sign. I talked to everyone I 
could. I found counsel with friends and tried to
stay busy. Still she haunted me through life.. I 
had to say her name when I canceled our dance 
lessons. This song or that song was the one 
she'd burned to a CD for me. Her MySpace said 
"Single" now. The necklace she gave me burned 
heart-shaped scab into my chest. The hole she 
once filled was all I had left and willingly I 
fell into it each day.

Eventually, I came here. I stumbled upon Neil's 
book and chandeliers of ideas exploded in my 
head. The question etched itself more boldly on 
my brain as I turned each page: Would it all 
work on her?

...

Ring

"Hello."

"Hey, it's me."

"I know."

"Pick a number between 1 and 10 but don't say 
what it is."

"Um...OK."

"It's 7, right?"

"Yeah, what!? How did you..."

"I think I'm becoming psychic."

"Whatever. No you're not."

"Yeah, I went to this palm-reading lady and she 
had me do this intuitive test called The Cube. I
think it made me psychic."

"Really, what was it?"

"Well, it's called The Cube and it tells you all
about yourself in a few questions. So first 
question..."

I demonstrated higher value, I disqualified, I 
elicited values, I showed pre-selection, I sank 
neuro-linguistic programming anchors every 
chance I got, and I built jealousy plotlines 
like the ancient Egyptians build pyramids. To 
her I became the all new attractive and exciting
model of me. We were together again, watching 
movies, having dinner, taking road trips, and 
screwing like rabbits might on the night before 
bunny Armageddon.

Almost a perfect story, but I couldn't keep it 
up forever. I had only whitewashed the exterior 
of a rotting house. Inside I was still hurt and 
unconfident. I juggled a good game for a few 
months and then the bottom dropped out. And this
time our biting actions and burning words 
scarred our memories of each other forever.

Now, many of you like I, came here for her, that
one girl that you are broken for. Often I am 
asked "How do I get her back?" And yes I know 
the prescription for your affliction, it's my 
own design. Yet to take that pill into your 
heart is to invite doom there. It is the sin of 
vanity to seek to resuscitate that which has 
died, to create your own relationship monster of
Frankenstein. The truth is that if you manage to
get her back it will self-destruct again.

There's too much hurt surrounding you both to 
make it right.

I know this truth doesn't dispel the hurt. In 
fact, it takes some hard work on your part to 
move past it, but, you can make it go away 
forever. There is no quick fix. You can use this
community and it's teachings to spackle over 
your faults, however, this never allows you to 
rebuild your house of attraction to its maximum 
height. We have all the secrets you wish you 
knew since you first wanted to kiss a girl
instead of just pull her ponytails. If you put 
in the time and effort to truly learn, then you 
become better. You can mold yourself to be the 
life of the party, the guy with the girlfriend 
of his dreams, the guy not afraid to approach 
any woman you are attracted to.

Today, after the hurt is over I'm glad that I 
had her. I'm glad that together we ripped a hole
in my heart because without it I wouldn't have 
met all of you. I wouldn't have learned to be 
the man I am today. So embrace the pain and make
it the fuel that lights your fire of self-
improvement. Don't go after her and re-open the 
dark door of hurt, it always ends one way.

Thank you Ma

well that story actually had parts which i had encountered before well guys the guy said "don't go after her and re-open the dark door of hurt, it always ends one way." what do you thinnk about this ? does this mean that pathes dont usually work out ..i have a friend who once told me that if a relation ship is broken ..it usually cannot be patched cause what more can you give other than what you already have given in the past? well the answer still remains anonymus ..guys if you wanna share about this topic do tag at the tag board which i belive it should be on the left of the page .

QUALITIES THAT I WOULD LIKE IN A GIRL

-she has to be enthusiastic

-she has to be adventures

-funny

-well if she could be insecure that would be good

-caring

well i guess i speak for all the guys out there who dosent want these qualities haha anyways i went to check out my astrological chart and look what it said about me

According to your sun sign, Libra, you are a somewhat extroverted person, although, you may have found that you have spent a good amount of time as an introspective individual. This, at certain times in your life, has led to a good amount of time in isolation or, at least, away from the social crowd you would like to have been part of.
Your Moon shows you to be a person who hides the fullest extent of your emotions, although you are truly an emotional person at heart. You may find it hard to let people in and share many of your insecurities, which, in turn may have slowed your journey through life up until recently. According to the transition of Mars through your chart, you have found a new path to self-discovery that will quell many inner conflicts and insecurities you may well i guess they're right haha anyways its getting late do tagg seyaa

new year new ME

2009-02-12T09:42:00.001-08:00

My doting mother got me a mac book for my poly days which are ahead of me the state of the art machine cost her $2448 ..well not to sound like a spoilt brat i actually paid $448 hahaha ...(at least i paid something right )

holidays tends to get quite boring when you have nothing to do and days seems to pass by streamlessly and day by day you realize that you'd just want the holidays to be done and over with and start school as soon as possible.

i was looking at my schools website and i began scrolling through the cca's and I'm actually impressed that they have loads of cca's .I've came across a couple which i seemed interested in ...they are toastmasters(since i loved to talk ,here's an opportunity to refine my skills),diving(my love for the sea is beyond anything you can think of )debate(learn to rebel in an intelligent way?...might give it a shot)akido(ooh I'm SO taking this ..MARTIAL ARTS.)the reason behind this is actually sad..OK when i was young i wasn't the whole

stand up for you rights kinda guy...neither was i the "shut your mouth punk before i poop it " kinda guy .i was an average guy who went to school with a $2 and came back full ..ok..ok.who am i kidding i was a weak punk and was scared of everything ..but then during my secondary days ..there was this moment where i was beaten up badly that i broke my finger and guess what ...I DIDN'T even RETALIATE ...

well enough of that ..lets fas forward abit

YEAR 2008

i was dating this girl for a couple of months but things seems to be going out well but like all relationships we had our quarrels and there was this particular quarrel where she told me that "beneath all of that muscle your actually weak " those words hit me like a brick ..who was i kidding ..she was right beneath all my muscle i'm still that boy that i've always been .so by taking aikido and snowbording and wake bording ,i'm slowly overcoming my fears .well thats it we broke up and life goes on right ....well if you are reading this then i'm sorry(you knoe for what)

its abit late but here are my goals for this year

GOALS FOR 2009

1)learn how to cook 7 dishes(food is the way to a girl's heart)

2)be a whole new person in poly(the change which i always wanted)

3)being a libra i hate being alone so i want lots of friends(much more than i have now)

4)learn salsa and bachata

5)get myself a new cam with a gps so i can get my location of the pics where i took them(you can only do this on a mac )

6)Lean Surfing(wanting to go to austrialla)

7)get a 3 feet marine tank (upgrade my 2 feet tank)

8)get MY ABS (working on them seriously)

9)no more pimples (processing..went to skin centre for treatment)

10)to make up to everyone i ever hurt in my life

kate nash

2009-01-27T21:25:00.000-08:00

ok there i was during chineses new year being a couch potato and watching the tele .and guess who appreared ...it was kate nash ,i didnt really think much of her till i went online and checked out her songs and to be honest i'm actualy going to buy her album real soon she the sweetest thing ever.there is this song which i am really into now its called foundation by kate nash here's the clip go and check it out(http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w9XA5Xb-ALk) god she has loadz of shoes which actually reminded me of an old friend who used to have loadz of shoes bet she'll like them .hahah crazy ass gurl hahaha anyways i'm so close to buy my macbook i've got 200 dollar to save and i'll be getrting it prollynext week whoooo i cant wait but the sad thing is that most of my friends are entering school this feb i'll miss them and guys study hard,ying ling,steph,regina,deepika study hard guys thats all i can say .and to whom i did not mention i'm sorry prolly i did not know whether you entered a poly or jc but either way good luck ,to all my poly friends you've gotta SUCKKKKKK up the holidays till its over whoooo final lap guys .

the one thing i love and hate about chinese new year is that you'll see the whole family out together with newly pressed clothes which looks stuning and the kids are happy because they're counting their earnings for the day haha i remember when i was at that age .there was a point in time where in that year my hari raya money was very little and i was like mom 'how can this happen mom " then she'd be like 'economic crisis walid" and i was like "RIGHTT...."hahahaha .ok the thing i really hate about chinese new year and no offense to the people but all the freaking shops are closed and you'd have to laze around at home ,thank god for the tele or not i'd be dead by 2 pm haha

ok till then i gotta goo

much love
walid

LOVE or OBSESSION

2009-01-24T09:58:00.000-08:00

ok have you ever liked someone and then loose him/her but after all this time being seperated you still think of him/her well i read this book and it says if you have this feeling then it is not love its obsession so you should just forget of him/her prolly him/her has forgotten you .

anyways i went with my doting mother to ben and jerry's at dempsey road (its a really sweet place its for the higher end people).so i took her there and we had ice cream of course and there she was a girl named samantha i spoke too her and she seemed interested at the first instant we spoke but the thing is i didnt like get her contacts she was a chindian(chinese+indian) well she didnt look like no indian to me .you know what thinking of it,...she actually looks like nelly futardo.hahah i miss her ,but she's leaving to dubai for 5 weeks well i guess i gotta go back to the shop with ishaq and prolly she is there and things is valentine day is coming soon and i'm helping him for his present ,he is prolly gonna make something from my shop so i'm helping it out i guess i'm gonna stop here anyways to all my chinese friends i wish all of you guys a happy chinese new year and

SAD NEWS GUYS

2009-01-20T08:52:00.000-08:00

like the title states its actually a sad event for me i screwed up my laptop i dropped a magnet on my hard disk and screwed it all up and now i'm doing this threw my iphone thank god for the invention of wifi on a phone or not i'll be dead.but none the less i'll be prolly getting my new laptop next week or the week after that .its gonna be a MACBOOK whooo and i'm so loving it .anways this week was really crazy i went for my first dancing lesson with nick, steph,randy and mus and the next day our legs hurt like they never hurt before but it was fun.looks like all those danceing in the clubs wont help you here hahah .well here's the vid of us http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UbHw8L46Xi8.check it out when you have time it was really funny i was half way pulling my self through .my hands were bruised and was sweating more than i ever had .haha

moving on the next dance i went to sentosa with ying ling and randy and nick we had SUPER loadz of fun from playing with frizbee(sorry aint know how to spell it ;its the circular thing where people play it at beaches and is alot of fun) we went taning swiming and i was even buried under the sand haha (will upload the pics on facebook when i get my comp) till then its just mere words

well me and ying ling are close now we tend to go out and do stuff together and it will get more fun when miss engs around we are like Les Trois Mousquetaires(The Three Musketeers)
ok i dont know why every thing is all blod but do endure with me for now .so where were we again ....oh yea i told my mom the other day i wanted to apply for the job as an island caretaker in austrialla and guess what she told me hahah she said'walid when your gone 6000 miles off to an island which is suppose to be on this planet for 6 months ,who is going to take care of your fishes ?? " i sat there and laughed till i could no more i sat beside her and kissed her and told her"you are" hahahaha and we started laughing uncontrollably i love her soooo much 'well i guess if a girl wants to know how he would treat her when they get married i guess she should look at how he treats his mom and this will roughly give you a judging line .anyways enough of my ISLAND CARETAKING JOB

omg omg omg i just got off the phone with my cuzzies from morroco they so want me to come cause they're making a party for my passing of o levels. i told them i couldnt come because my mom gave me a choise whether to have a laptop or to go there .. so i chose the laptop ... now they are begging me to go and i told them i'm broke and the thing which brought tears to my eyes is that they are saving up money from the whole family to make sure i get my ass over there for the party
hahaha i soooo love my family i guess things have really changed alot for me well like they say the difference between men and boys are the lesson they learn (i dont know what this quote has to do with the story but i felt i had to say it)
ohhhh yea i'm taking my private pilot's license(ppl) with ying ling,randy,andrew and alden cool huh

anyways writing on my iphone is getting tiring take care guys

much love from walid
cherios

HELLO

2009-01-16T08:49:00.000-08:00

heyyy peeps .... guess wat i passed my o'levels hahaha i'm super hapy cause before my results i went to dubai (it was the craziest place ever check out my pics on facebook) and then when i passed my parents are getting me a macbook whoooooooo (which i'm so excited about) and yesterday i called my family in morocco and the told me they're getting me a ticket to go there and celebrate whooo i so love my family .ok to be honest i didnt get the best of grades but so what my family are happy for me and i'm greatfull for my marks and for the people around me who made it ,and for the people who didnt make it ,LIFe's tooo short to be upset about take the piece of paper and be confident when entering the school and tell yourself that you are gonna be the best there .

anyways i've saved up and i WANNA GO TO AUSTRILLIA i wannaa surf so badly i've already tried snowbording which i love so much i'm going dubai everyyear and i'm gonna snowboard .

well anyways i was in school a couple of days back and i met regina and her boyfriend and we were playing twister with nick .bummer she wantedd to take a pic but we fell before she could snap it .but it was really fun we were twisting our body till our body couldnt twist no more .i met regina at her shop today but i only waved i was headed to my lunch break.

they are 3 songs which go though my head every single day for the pas week and they're always on (repeat mode)on my iphone they're john legend-cross the line,pussycat dolls-i hate this part,taylor swift-love song

i gotta go seya

one love
walid

root of 3

2009-01-06T10:13:00.000-08:00

I’m sure that I will always be
A lonely number like root three

The three is all that’s good and right,
Why must my three keep out of sight
Beneath the vicious square root sign,
I wish instead I were a nine

For nine could thwart this evil trick,
with just some quick arithmetic

I know I’ll never see the sun, as 1.7321
Such is my reality, a sad irrationality

When hark! What is this I see,
ANOTHER SQUARE ROOT OF THREE
As quietly co-waltzing by,
Together now we multiply
To form a number we prefer,
Rejoicing as an integer

We break free from our mortal bonds
With the wave of magic wands

Our square root signs become unglued
Your love for me has been renewed

i'm having a bad tummy ache someone help me

2008-12-07T09:04:00.000-08:00

well here i am again not listening to jason mraz but james morrison and looking happily at my beautiful marine fishes upholding the moonlight which shines gleemingly on my fishes
its 1 in the morning right now and and i'm trying to think about what to write ,well my neighbour came over to talk about how he misses his gf and that he cant do nothing about it painfull yet helpfully i talked him out and slowly and sleekfully i changed the topic and made him change his course of pain and anger into following me to the gym ,YES the gym and i skipped work for that soi could help a friend and my stupid excuse i told my boss was that i was sick so anyways we went and pumped and pumped(that actually refers to carrying weights) till our hands could not carry no more and then we pumped again ,by the end of the day we were so exhausted that we dragged ourselves to compass point to grab a bite and take our minds off what we were caught up with .

people always tell me that i dont show my real self to people that i tend to show the rough and self sentered exterior of me ,i actually do agree to that,ok take this senario for instant i meet this person for the first time and i tell her everything aabout myself ok say she takes all my bull and she likes me 1st date-she's excited 2nd date-she finds me ok but by the time it reaches the third date ,she'd be bored as shit cause there's noting more i could give everything i had i told her

or maybe i'm afraid of being judged that i take critism to personally and i'm afraid that people will get to know who i really am and might not like the real me so i tend to keep to myself always and maybe i keep to my self alot because i'm the only child and i dun reallyhave no one to tellthem to .i do tell stuff to my mom cause i love her to bits but i cant really tell her everything cause it will really be disrespectful in a way .people have come and i've guess i started to talk alittle (thanks ms eng and faiz) these two people i believe i can trust but never complete .i dont really trust anyone cause no one i mean no one keeps their word in this world maybe some but not to many and because of these little quantity it actually makes me wonder what kind of a world we are living in . we living in a society where we dont receive a simple thank you for the little services that you did .everytime i go to work i keep telling my self "walid dont ever expect a simple thank you from any one" and then occasionaly out of the blues someone supprises me and tells me that they are greatful for my service and then i realise that there are people who do care ,is it really hard for you to tell your employers thank you for your help it was really good having you guys around good work' is that really hard .but who i am to judge i just keep my mouth shut and work my ass of for $5 an hour so that i can buy my laptop and go to austrialla.

well what can i really say work is work and life is not work .i dont want to be working 9 to 5 my whole life i cant stand it and for you people out there who actually are i give my respect to you .

there's so much craziness surrounding me so much going on it gets hard to breath all my faith has gone you bring it back to me you make it real for me i'm not sure about my piorities i've lost sight where i ment to be .and i am running to you baby cause you are the only one who saves me thats why i've been missing you lately cause you make it real for me .when my head is stong but my heart is weak i cant find the words to make me speak.i guess there's so much more that i gotta learn but if you're here with me i know which way to turn you always lead me somewhere ,somewhere i can run so i'm running to you baby

ok i guess thats it i'm going to sleep tomoro is hari raya to the non muslim people enjoy the holidays

walid
peace&love(xoxo)

random thoughts

2008-12-06T10:40:00.000-08:00

well here i am listening to one song which i seem to love alot these days "i'm yours" its not like i'm someone's already but it actually makes me wonder if i can actually be yours ? cause everytime i enter the whole cycle (relationship) i tend to screw it up ,its really inevitable but what the heck prolly i learn ...prolly not ,who knows well i just i gotta follow the stream where life takes me and eventually i do actually believe that everyone needs to end up with someone in the end .but it depends on whether you'll find one early or later ,i guess i've got a quote which i actually believe"think not you can direct the course of love for love would to find you worthy will direct you up course"(thanks mom) i'm not really sure who it was from but it was definatly from a person who actually experienced .

life is not all about partying,who wear the nicest suit ,who drives an expensive car but its the littlest things which actually do matter ,details are actually makes the person unique and i do believe each and every individual is unique in their very own way and it really makes my heart tear up when i actually hear people complaining that they dont belong or they are not accepted but just look on the other maybe its not you but the crowd that you are actually mixing around with that you are not accepting ,

purpose,what is your purpose in life? there is no answer to that question really your purpose will be made with every mistake that you make in life(well that is what i belive).A good friend once told me"walid,make as many mistakes as you want when your still young because you will mature at a much faster and you will have to face the fact that you will be hurt in the process and when you do, do learn where that pain is coming from and try to overcome it when it comes back again" well i've not really known what my purpose , and i guess i will not really know it any time soon well

i keep a good luck charm underneath my arm cause she told me to little soft and round like a penny found , she said it keep an eye on you, she said incase i try to do something stupid

welll i guess reality finally got to me and i think i'm actually writing rubbish (it was like i was in a trans when i writing that)well i'm gonna stop saying sorry cause i know i'm going to repeat it well i guess thats me ;) anyways i've gotta get to sleep its 3 in the morning and i guess its bed time for me sweet dreams my beloved readers je taime

walid
one love(xoxo)

unconditional letter to the people out there and to my self

2008-12-02T07:09:00.000-08:00

my deepest apologies that i have not been writing in my blog .well my real or so called "excuse" i could give my self is that i was working .yes you heard that i've got a jobbbbb and i'm daam siked mainly beacause i got a job which actually involves me using my "socialbility" into act and not into play(if you know what i mean).well i got a job a 'MADE WITH LOVE' its situated at plaza singapura
the shop actually deals with making of scrapbooks and other crafty things.so people out there if you ever want help to make for your boyfriend or girlfriend i'd be most willing to help in any way possible i guess i'm gonna make it one of these days for somebody special.ok here's the funny part i actually did not want this job because you know me ,i aint really the creative one here ,so back to the story ...i was job hunting with a good friend of mine 'ying ling'(i may annoy her sometimes but its fun haha) she is an art student and all so she was really interested in that job so she pulled me in the shop and grapped an application form for me and her and guess who got called in two days time
.......ME not her but ME i was really shocked cause i didnt actually want the job but hey i was jobless... so i had no other choice i had to get money from somewhere for my austrialla trip .so i took it ,the first few days days were really bad beause they were really loadz of stuff i was really what people in my country would say in french"flou" which means ''blur'' in singapore contexts .anyways i made more friends that i could ever meet my whole year.she shop is always packed with young ladies and ladies young at heart all are friendly and we do have the occasional sirs who come in who wants me to help them to make something for their partner or wife.there is this girl who is really over of the roof for me ,her name is karin (well at least thats how i guess its spelled out) she isthe kind of girli guess i really wanted to meet she has the cutest laugh anyone could ever hear her smile is so alluring like bees to honey well thats all i'm gonna say about her dont wanna go overboard ..and ohh yahh guess what ......she works there toooo hahaha ok well enough of work really lets talk about me

life have been really tiring for me but fun and enduring for me ,i placed my self for the standard chartered race up this sunday monday is hari raya and i'm planning to take up dance lessons prolly salsa or tango well i gotta find a partner maybe i'll ask karin if she wants but hey maye i'll not ask her i'll see what will happens but if any of you guys wanna join me i'd really be happy (ps;no boys please)no offence to the dudes i dont think it'll be comfortable for two guys to be dancing .well thats about it for dancing ,to be honest blogging to be is where i can actually write how i feel that instant i dont dont really care what goes into it as long as i can reald it the next day and tell myself tat"DUDE ok you were abit emotional yestereday and you are aware of that so make sure you make yourself happy today" call me crazy or insane but that is what i tell myself everytime i'm feeling down or alone(i'm a libra i tend to feel alone and always keep to my self) so if anyone of you who wanna know me more deeper and not in a superfical way just read my blog(if your lucky i do update and if not then i guess too bad then and if your really lucky i may show that side to you) i may look like i dont give a shit about stuff always but deep down when i sit alone in a comfort zone i do actually realize what a jerk i really am and since i already potray that image to people who i already know,i tend to keep it that way but i'm actually trying to change i'm really different infront of the people i do work with well all in all what i have to say before i end is that if you want to hate me be my guest but loving me thats another situation its hard really ,and i really mean no harm at all thank you all for listening to my pathaetic story of mine and i do apologize for my improper language used or vocab mistakes whichi have made along the way .take care people and Merry Christmas may all your wishes be fulfilled (i hope mine will)

peace&love
walid

EXAMS ARE OVERR!!!

2008-11-12T09:27:00.000-08:00

well first things first exams are so overr and i'm loving it wanna know why.... cause i dont have to see my textbooks no more its all either donated or thrown away.well i would like to thank everyone who has helped me through it really has been a long journey and not a smooth one for me but well thats life right..it may seem good for an instant but turn bad all of a sudden well thats my like everyone has their stories .i really think i have matured in terms or mentalness for the past 5 years .well here;s a list for me to thank
mr ismail(really been there for me in sec 1)
miss theresa(pulled me through difficult situations)
mr donny(thought me the difference between right and wrong)
miss nelleke eng(you are indeed a caring teacher words cant explain how much i thank you for being my teacher)
ms indra(my first dicipline master now close friend)
miss ong(my math teacher who took my bs till now)
mr yong(thought me maths even though other teachers disliked it)
ms ling (always had a smile on her face everyday happy retirement)
mr simon sin(the best d&T teacher)
mr vinson khoo(next one in line keep it up man)
mdm au(the determine one she never gave up on me always optimistic and pragmatic)
to all the teachers which i did not type out each one has changed me in one way or another and i thank you for that.
well for my friends which i'll never forget
bakthiar(a nice guy which you can really talk to)
sabariah(a great friend stuck through with me for 5 years same class)

faiz(sticking strong 8 years)
zul(my best friend)
nick(the determined one)
cindy(a very smart gurl)
syaheerah(thanks for the help in d&T)
lui hui(the persistant one i've never seen a more focused girl)
kamiya(the creative one)
faezah(the crazy gurl)
marianne(sweet gurl but insecure,thought me the real meaning of relationship)
ishaq(blood brother )
roseria(from a duck to a beautiful swann keep looking hot rossy)
angelina(a sensitive chic with one tough exterior but a best friend)syazni(one of the best singers and everyone's friend)
faiznur(crazy as always yet sensitve)
usman(a great man who thought me the real meaning of life )
to all thouse i didnt call out i loveyou guys no matter what happens in january well one last word "IT'S PARTY TIMEEEEEEEEE'

2008-08-07T20:15:00.000-07:00

HAIZ!!!!

the energy around me will adapt to my needs.

Due to cousins wedding at Malaysia , Masai.
I am unable to go for National Day.
I have got the tickets but yeah not worth it.
Being nice , I gave mines to Syafiq. Have fun!

2008-08-04T00:45:00.001-07:00

JUST FOR U

Those who love me and you;
lets push that button and do it

Specially For My Walid Shah,

To those who are free and love him ,
Lets all pray that he will be in a good state of mind
Doing well in his prelims and O-Levels,
He is an intelligent boy , yes we all know that
Praying is an important factor to produce good results.
Lets spent just 5 minutes and doa for him
Amin....

Lets meet again soon, imy

2008-08-04T00:28:00.000-07:00

Making Money

Dealing with ducks

Yes thats rite,
Earning is an important factor now,
Turning 20 soon , need to get my own cash and save to do other important factors!

Well gonna start work soon at Ducktours, need to remember a whole chunk of words

ps: i feel like i was just born in Singapore and learning history.

2008-07-28T00:54:00.000-07:00

WE WON

I not only paid half of what I owed
;I paid three/quarter

Happiness comes in different form of ways!! Winning 1st in a dance competition is what I did not expect!! It's shocking, but the prize is awesome!! Ok , we're talking about $3000 bucks!! Man!! n there are only 3 in the crew!! What were the judges thinking!! They love us they really really love our dope dance moves!!

Congrats to TRIPLE S CREW for winning BEDOK SUPERSTAR '08 We will keep on dancing and continue training and winning more competitions!

The Only Bhangra Hiphop Crew

Lets take it to the streets; and create more troubles
I miss those days!

affective

2008-07-22T09:09:00.000-07:00

ladies and gentleman i would like to share something that is a little that of close to my heart have u ever felt hurt when someone actually does someting but not nesasarily to you but u actually feel bad .anways a friend of mine has been doing somestuff that i'm actually not to proud off but like people in singapore say its their problem why bother but it hurts me so bad that i actually cannot do anything about it and the only thing i seem to do is to keep quiet well to be exact i'm talking about drinking ...it may not seem bad to u but it is people may say they'll never do it again but they do its addiction (i guess i've not actually drank) but for guys its ok but ladies its a ungh-ungh well maybe i should stay far from them idunno people are nice but to the extent of drinking its actually spoiling the respect for ur self as a human being (to all non muslims this is so not for u guys ) well if u know what i'm refering to please dont ask me who i'm taking about but if u know who u are then all i can say is its ur life do what u want to with it nobody's stoping you till then see ya soon take care remember that kids dun take drugs,cigarette,liquier cause it may ruin ur life if u cant take control of it(I HOLD NO GRUDGES AGAINST NO ONE IN PARTICULAR)

peace&love
walid shah

2008-07-21T19:30:00.000-07:00

SMILING

Smile cause its you ; you always do it

Smiling is something that Im gonna accomplished tonight after meeting Mr Walid.
I will be 10000% entertained by his craps and jokes.

Well days have been up and downs but its ok!! I have still got my happy pills around me. I will get better soon.

THOSE OF U WHO DONT KNOW , WALID'S BACK!!!!!!! Heard he had a great and awesome trip. We peeps called it:

Our Favourite Word

Colourful things i love

2008-07-20T18:18:00.000-07:00

DROWNING

the lights go off when the heart drowns

We say "its ok" but the truth is "its not ok"
But how do we tell, we dont want u to be hurt
Lets hope you understand!
I shall just wait and wait and wait and WAIT till you remember.............

i shall zip , sit& wait

2008-07-17T18:23:00.000-07:00

HOLIDAY

Lets face the challenges together and reach up high

For those people who is looking for Mr Walid, he has gone for an enjoyable and educational trip
to Kuala Lumpur.

Lets just pray that he will come back in one piece with loads of gifts just for me & his family members & good friends.

He will be having a great time attracting all the girls. Hehehe!

Well he will be back this Saturday!. Till then take care and enjoy the rest of my posting.

Toodle Doodle

always think before u say;
cause it might hurt & last forever

2008-07-16T19:40:00.000-07:00

FAKE MOVIES
watching alone by the stars;
just me n the labtop

Thanks to SOME people , who promised to watch movies with me.
But turn out to be nothing. Its ok! Im cool with it!
Manage to deal with it by downloading myself and enjoying it MYSELF ALL ALONE!
If this happens again , I shall hmmmmm mmmmmm .. ( will think about that )
Believe me!!!

Some movies that were dope & I enjoyed it all alone:

Good movie , Intelligence involved , Hot Guy

I know its an old movie , but its dopes and very sad too! STEPHEN KINGS; an old man with a kick

NEXT MOVIE THAT I WANNA CATCH:

SCARY MOVIE WITH A TWIST

Lets see who's next?

karma belive it ..? well i do

2008-07-15T07:33:00.000-07:00

heyy give me a sec let me get my colours ok there we go . another day another blog anyways first's things first lets talk about my DPA i dunno if it went well but i'm hopping i get shortlisted ok soo basically i wanna join aeronautical engineering wanna know why ....? 2 reasons actually first is because i actually have interest in it and 2nd is beacause my whole family dosent even know how to pronounce it so that'll make me sound "much cleverer" than that of them haha i'm just trying to imagine a moroccan lady saying aeronautical hahahahha daaam nvm morrocan just imagine syaheera islam saying hahaha i cant even stop laughing (syaheera no offece though) haha well check out my dpa tell me how u gurls,guys think of it "My zest for aeronautical engineering course is fired by my exposure to aviation environment in school by participating in Singapore youth flying club as senior member. I know basic fundamental of flight including aeromodelling of advance performance aircraft design, flight testing. I have tremendous thrust to learn even more so that I may contribute in the Singapore's aviation industry. If given one chance to partake in this distinguished diploma, I will excel in academics, and provide leadership to my fellow classmates in every enriching opportunity that SP has to offer. Thank you." dont really knoow if its ok just pray hard for me .. ok lets drop this topic .ok let me ask u about cause and effect so called "karma" well guys to tell ya the truth i didnt actually believe it at first but it turned out to be true (to me) well it got me started into this wholee forgiveness thinggy daaam 'my name is earl' seems to actually fit me at this pointa time dont ya think well anyways i gotta bouce.i would like to thank syaheera for bloging with pic causse it'll be boring just typing me all alone haha seya bye i've got something for u guys out there and belive me u really gotta remember this "looks catches the eyes but personality catches the heart " remember that kids and always respect the ladies

walid shah
peace&love

2008-07-14T18:04:00.000-07:00

DISTURBANCES

Some of the external factor that are affecting us while doing " OUR PROJECT WORK ".

Walid's Beloved Friend: he uses his slipper to hit this thing;how mean

This thing POOOOOooo its way nicely above us ; also got it's whacking from Walid

Rain rain never goes away; we sat under the PONDOK waiting

ARGUMENTS; yeah sometimes , we quarrel & non-stop talking too

Kids At Play: too much noise but its their area, so no complains

despite all the factors; we still had a great day in the end

2008-07-14T17:39:00.000-07:00

HELPING HAND

help comes in different ways

We met someone interesting , well he is MR BALDIE aka. USMAN.
Nice guy, cool dude
Helping us alot in "OUR PROJECT WORK".
Well believe me , he knows alot , as in really really alot!
He has been assisting Mr Walid and doodling his way through.
Thanks Alot , we appreciate his help!!

will meet soon :) not yesterday , not today but tmr!!

2008-07-09T22:59:00.000-07:00

CHOICESLead me the way; if u know u're in charge

Many things in my mind now , dont know what to do.
Some of the choices that I thought of would be:

1. Selling Drugs ( not bad)
2. Clinical Trials ( not bad but dangerous but good money $$)
3.Taxi Driver ( I dont even know how to go to BAKAU : Besties Place)
4.Terrorists (Hmm , I need to get Mas Selamat)

Yup those were some of the choices that I thought of to make money! Not Bad! ;)

ps: Handsome , U can forget how to spell my name! Thanks! U Rock

pushing daisies & prison break; reminder service 4 each other!

2008-07-09T18:28:00.000-07:00

Loneliness

Lost in a room , cause im alone

Dont ask why ,

Worst things happen ,
In search of money,

I didnt purposely hit you , it was an accident, u blame it all on me
Lost , Panic , Shocked
Time will tell, lets just pray and wait

I fought with God but HE just keeps winning

just another day

2008-07-09T06:33:00.000-07:00

firstly i would like to say thank u to the beautiful syahirah islam for writing such totally sweet things about me which i dont think its true but since she said it might as well accept it ,anyways my posts are always the boring ones beacause they're seem to be no COLOURS ok le me try this since my fav colour is red i'm gonna finish my blog in red .well let me see what happened to day hmmm.. nothing much actually but ganesh is back thats good .hmm met a new friend i guess names manal from france she's cool the whole fact that she is from france is already cool haha . ok i gotta admit it i cant wait to go to KL babyyyy whoo u might never know who u might meet and for all my school girls who things i'm flirting u can go sedot on my b***S its called socialising daam didnt ur school teach ya that other vectors and algebra well i;m gonna end with a qoute which i think is one of the principles i follow in life "It is better to be hated for who you are than to be loved for what you are not." thank you all merci mon amine

peace&love
yours trully
walid

2008-07-07T19:48:00.000-07:00

BONDS!

take me up high , cause i know
u can make me fly

Well met u yesterday , at our usual place. Barely did anything. More of arguing and quarreling. On the way home met someone UNUSUAL but it was cool! Do realize that Allah is sending u ppl to help you do well!! Make full used of it!

Everytime we meet, this 2 are common:

you seddddddooooooootttttttt!!!

Appreciate the one you love or treasure and reward them!
Thank You!

i miss movies with u :)

2008-07-07T00:41:00.000-07:00

New And Fresh!Every drop that tickles down; tick tock tick tock

Meeting new people is part of everyone's life! Meeting you was a great pleasure! Thanks for the great hospitality , the TIKUS moments and not forgetting the PONGGOL'S PONDOK!

Great Times We Had , Lets Cherish It and Keep On Observing , Disturbing and Causing More Troubles To The People & World! WOOOOOHOOOO!!!

lets not stop arguing; its fun

2008-07-06T22:13:00.000-07:00

Baking,I Loved

Dont be unhappy , show me a smile.
Cause u're beautiful , like a rainbow

Hello Everyone ,
Princess here,
Guess this blog shall have part of my story, now that I have been invited!

Today's Youth Day,
Ppl might be thinking what the heck im doing in school! But yeah! This is poly life!
Studying , Projects , Reports , Research!

Let me add one more thing , now that I have my beloved Walid's DnT project to complete!!! Aww I do it 200% best :) PROMISED!

Anyways, life is full of ups and downs , challenges and everything. Just battle it out one by one and live happily ever after!

Outs
xoxo Princess aka Bomb!

Donuts with a twist

2008-07-05T09:34:00.000-07:00

well like they say picture says a thousand words and i actually do agree to that but in my case in everything i see or do there is always two sides of a story to it. for example if any of u ladies or guys are taking accounts out there as a subject ,u might know that when u get a so called'additional info" there's always 2 accounts u gotta place them in to make them balance right...ok i'm taking crap here well my point is look those donuts on the left they may not actually look nice but they taste extraordinary my point is i'm a type if person who dosent really care about the looks of the person but actually how they taste thats most important cause if it is gonna taste bad ur gonna have a bad time swallowing it (trust me on this).the one on the bottom right looks familar (i've seen it some where )haha well those donuts really made my day and faiz u should have been here man enjoying life greatest gift THE CINNAMON DONUT whoooooooo cheers peace out love u guys

peace&love
walid

2008-07-04T07:36:00.001-07:00

heyyy ladies and of course guys i've finally got a bloggg daaam this is dope and all with the help of one chick rose thanks rose luv yaaaa well thats about all for now alll credits goes to roseria nathan seya

peace&loveb